TRYING TO FEEL BETTER

It can be so hard to eat right and take care of one's self, but unfortunately the good Lord only gives us one body in this life, and if we don't take care of it, we just can't go buy another one! Even though I've been fighting cancer on and off for many years, at least I was able to take care of my body while I was well. But for the past nine years, as my ability to do things decreased, so did my activity level. As anyone who has lifted weights can tell you, first you build strength, then endurance, not the other way around. I'm taking a break from chemo, and I'm gonna try to build strength. The truth is that if I go right back into chemo, I might not be able to survive. All my organs are very weak right now, so I must try to get strong again. God may have made me a little thing, but I was always very very strong.

So for right now it looks like a low calorie, high protein diet for this little munchkin. And also no sugar (oh shit!!!) but I'm not giving up my honey roasted almonds, sorry I gotta draw the line somewhere! As far as caffeine, that will be the really hard one, but I will do it slowly. At least I will still be able to have a beer or some red wine a few times a week, a little alcohol is actually good for the kidneys when you're in a wheelchair. Well I guess that's it for now, except to say that I feel like a tired little girl looking up at a huge mountain in front of me that I have to climb all alone.