To All Of You
Monday, December 21, 2009
More than words
I remember my husband playing the guitar and I'd sing this song to him, I wish everyone could have a love like that. Maybe I'll find love like that again.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
IT'S BEEN SO LONG
Hello World! I never knew so many of you actually read this blog until I stop writing for awhile. So much has happened since Halloween, and most of it is very painful. I have hundreds of acquaintances, many friends, and some great close friends. I even have an extended family that always seem to pull me through when I need them the most. But this entry is dedicated to two very special men in my life.
GARY: My Papa Gary! He of all my friends is the one that I turn to for not only guidance, but for just plan fatherly love. And of all the people I know, he is the one that I respect the most. He has a grown daughter that faces many of the same life challenges that I have to face, so he REALLY knows what I go through, and just what I need to hear to pull me through. When I'm with him I feel like a protected little girl, and I've waited so long to feel that safe again. Recently a situation came up that really hurt me, and although I don't like to see people I love upset over me, when I heard how angry Gary was, and how he got to the bottom of it, it warmed my heart so much to know he had my back. Although there was really nothing he could do to change it, he just made me feel loved and protected. For someone who's been without a father for the past 27 years, it just feels so good to be loved like that.
TODD: My Precious Toddler! Now I've been blessed a few times in my life to have known someone who understands me, but I don't think I've met anyone who is almost exactly like me! Even from the first day we met last summer, he saw right through me. Wise far beyond his years, he possesses not only the intelligence to know how to communicate with me, but also the patience needed to be close to me. People like Todd and I are very rare. We're not better than anyone else, but we just don't fit in with most of society. Even though we have big hearts with a huge capasity to love, we are ruled by our minds. I guess you could say we are complicated minded people who truly enjoy the simple things in life. He makes me feel peaceful and NORMAL. And I just know that no matter what life may throw at me, I can always call him and even if he doesn't have the solution, he will know what to say to make me feel better.
These two men mean the world to me. The only scary thing about them is that I can never put anything over on them. They know just from the tone of my voice when somethings up, and I can deny it til I'm blue in the face, but it will be of no use. I love them with all my heart, and I only hope that I bring even a small piece of joy into their lives, because I can never repay what they've given me.
GARY: My Papa Gary! He of all my friends is the one that I turn to for not only guidance, but for just plan fatherly love. And of all the people I know, he is the one that I respect the most. He has a grown daughter that faces many of the same life challenges that I have to face, so he REALLY knows what I go through, and just what I need to hear to pull me through. When I'm with him I feel like a protected little girl, and I've waited so long to feel that safe again. Recently a situation came up that really hurt me, and although I don't like to see people I love upset over me, when I heard how angry Gary was, and how he got to the bottom of it, it warmed my heart so much to know he had my back. Although there was really nothing he could do to change it, he just made me feel loved and protected. For someone who's been without a father for the past 27 years, it just feels so good to be loved like that.
TODD: My Precious Toddler! Now I've been blessed a few times in my life to have known someone who understands me, but I don't think I've met anyone who is almost exactly like me! Even from the first day we met last summer, he saw right through me. Wise far beyond his years, he possesses not only the intelligence to know how to communicate with me, but also the patience needed to be close to me. People like Todd and I are very rare. We're not better than anyone else, but we just don't fit in with most of society. Even though we have big hearts with a huge capasity to love, we are ruled by our minds. I guess you could say we are complicated minded people who truly enjoy the simple things in life. He makes me feel peaceful and NORMAL. And I just know that no matter what life may throw at me, I can always call him and even if he doesn't have the solution, he will know what to say to make me feel better.
These two men mean the world to me. The only scary thing about them is that I can never put anything over on them. They know just from the tone of my voice when somethings up, and I can deny it til I'm blue in the face, but it will be of no use. I love them with all my heart, and I only hope that I bring even a small piece of joy into their lives, because I can never repay what they've given me.
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