THE CHOICES WE MAKE

I have a friend named Stacy who has been battling cancer for over 15 years, and now it's relapsed again, and she doesn't want to take the treatment. For those of you who know her, YOU NEED TO BACK OFF!!!!! I know you care about her and don't want to loose her, I feel the same way, but in the end it's her choice. All we can do is be there for her, and help in any way we can. As my own doctors have said, sometimes the quality of life is more important than the quantity.

I've come to that point in my life. Not that I want to lay down and die, but if I only have a little time left, I want to find some joy before I go. I remember the post I wrote about not having any joy in my life for so long, well the truth is that it was all my own fault. I'm the one who put those walls around my own heart. I taught myself not to become attached or dependant on anything or anyone. Yes it does save you an enormous amount of pain, but it also robs you of joy.

I'm going to try to not only cut out of my life those that walk over me and take me for granted, but to love the ones that are in my life a little bit more. I want to be remembered with a smile, and maybe that I made them laugh once, not as a bitter woman in a wheelchair.


So remember we all go through some bad points in our lives, and if you suffer from depression, it's not your fault, and you need to get help. But if you find yourself constantly bitching about how unhappy your life is, 9 out of 10 times YOU are the one that needs to change. It's not easy, but all we have is here and now. We might not have tomorrow, and we can't bring back yesterday.