HOW DO YOU TURN OFF YOUR HEART?

Sad sad day....The other day a very dear friend of mine called me crying because her seven month old little girl was ill, and they thought she might have cancer. I did my best to calm her down, and told her that to just wait to see what the tests reveal. Well early this morning the baby was in a semi coma, so they rushed her back to the hospital, and her brother called me and said that little Ariel had a rare form of leukemia.

All these horrible thoughts came into my mind of how this poor little baby was going to have to go through to fight for her life. Then a few hours ago, my friends brother called me to say that baby Ariel passed away around 11:20 pm est. I was shocked, devastated, I still haven't stopped crying. In fact as I write this, tears are rolling down my face.

Why? Why give a beautiful little baby to someone just to take her away? And to think that this wonderful family was praying for me to get better not so long ago, and when I told them that my tumor was shrinking, they said I have to come out to Georgia so they can throw me a party. Then this happens...Why? Something has to be done about cancer. If you look back at all the people we've lost to this monster,(I've lost my whole family to it) and all the suffering it's caused, I just wish there was something we could do to stop this killer.

I guess you could say that we all have to die, and that we can't all die old in are beds pain free. But to take a baby that wasn't even given a chance, it just seems so unfair. I'm glad I have this blog to vent, and maybe touch someone who reads it, but right now all I feel is overwhelming sadness, and even guilt. Yes guilt, guilt that my 42 year old sagging butt is still here, when there are so many sick young people who have a hell of a lot more to live for, and they don't make it.

So as I go through another sleepless night, please do me a favor and count your blessings, hug and kiss your children, and above all do what the Grass Roots say and LIVE FOR TODAY!