You know I sometimes want to cry when I think of how people can just screw their fellow man over and still sleep at night. I mean, I've hurt people in my life, but I can say that I've never cheated someone, and I've always been fair. Yes I've done some things that I'm not proud of, but I just couldn't sleep if I knew I did wrong to someone.
I found out today that my roommate was charging me rent, and then he rented out my room behind my back. When I talked to him to find out what the heck was going on, realizing he just got caught, he told me his new roommate was a liar, and that I better pay the rent. I couldn't believe he said that and since I have my things still over there I just don't know what to do.
So here I am, better but still sick and this S. O. B. is ripping me off, and now I think I've lost my stuff. I can't believe someone would do that to me. But it's all my own fault. I thought with my heart, and now I must pay the price for my stupidity. Even when the beautiful necklace that my mom saved all year to buy me last Christmas was missing, I still didn't want to believe that my roommate could be behind it.
The things can be replaced, but some things can't like the beautiful picture of my grandparents, and the antique box I bought at Cowan's.
Sometimes I just want to crawl into bed and just stay there. It's not just what happened with my roommate, it's everything. And to make matters worse is that everyone thinks I'm so strong and that I can handle all this, but it's just not true. Maybe they're are those that can pick themselves up time and time again, but I really think I've reached my breaking point. Not sure what to do now. I was looking forward to going back, but now I have no home, and not even enough money to feed myself properly. It would be nice if just one thing would go right in my life, but right now, even though I'm trying so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, all I see is darkness.
To All Of You
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